原来每一颗星熄灭 才会再亮

原来每一朵云湿透 天才放晴

原来一颗心受伤 是爲了要更有勇气

原来勇气 因为失去 才有了意义

流过的泪留下运气 受过的伤都很荣幸

下一次跌落谷底 就该知道 躺下看山顶

何不替眼睛谢谢所有的风景

我存在就是个奇迹 你为我创造天与地

你让我不断迷路 直到找到 真正的自己

原来只要我能看见我的真心 就看见你
 

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Visited Thian Leng Old Folks Home today for i/e final project. Got the chance to interact with a handful of old aunties and uncles there, but more than half of the time, i was staying with this uncle who i decided to call him uncle Soo. From his appearance, i guess he is in his mid-eighties. I initially chose him to talk to was because the nurse told me he can speak mandarin, where most of the rest speak Hokkien. My tears just came out involuteerily while i was with him.
He was trying his very best to let the words out through his tooth-less mouth, i tried to get what he mean by reading his wrinkled lips. Initially it was really difficult to get the conversation going, but i'm contented that i slowly could read his lips better and got to chat with uncle soo. We  volunteers were told not to mention their children or their own home, it could be rather sensitive for them. But, though i tried to avoid the topic, i could see the lonely and depressed look from his face, he must have thought of something when he talkes to me, i could sense that noone has been really talkin to him for quite long. For a few times, when he didnt have the energy to talk anymore, he just looked up and shut his eyes. I know people normally do this action to control their tears from rolling out. And when i see him doing this, i had the rush to give him a big hug. But i just patted his shoulders and held his hands instead, cos we cant make them have very big movements. Aw, it's so saddening just by looking at uncle soo's face. I 'll probably go visit him again, since i go to kembangan almost every week to give tuition.
Oh gosh, we young people should seriously start treasuring our youth .

So my 2-week term break officially starts today. I'm thankful for the nice start and hopefully it'll be this great throughout the 14 days. I have listed out my to-dos for it and i'm certainly going to achieve them all.
Some thoughts have been running through my mind in and out these few weeks. I feel like i'm introducing myself a new me, as i am turning adult, some areas of my personality happen to change by themselves involunteerily. And by the time i slowly came to realise the change of myself, changes have already been made to things around me. I feel like some positive parts of me are slowly disappearing. And for the other areas of me which suppose to improve together with my age are just not moving forward, still stubbornly stuck at the naive and childish stage.
I dont know how to put this feeling into words, i sense something is just not right.
Am i stepping into a new world with my original personality? Or is my personality changing slowly while i'm still grabbing onto handle of the exit gate of my old world?
God is holding me in his hands, and i know he'll give me the perfect answer 1 day, He will make all these unknown changes known, and guide me along while i'm walking through them.
 

Lai ah lai ah.
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LOL!
Kit said i 'm like a consolation agency, me and my male clients, HAHAA, baka.
Pretty true though, i have consoled 4 poor souls within these 2 weeks, all i can say is wow.
I have my own messed up issues lying everywhere, not settled, yet i could still spare the times for my heart-broken friends.
How considerate of me.
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<How how how, i have been putting on a mask from the beginning, it's too hard to unmask now, even by myself>

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Had only 45 minutes of lesson today, my journey to school takes longer than that man. ROFL.
Met up with michelle, cos she also half-day today, and had lunch at UNCLE SAM's, nice! The restaurant looked abit like those crystal jade type of chinese restaurants but the student meal was actually very affordable! We spent only 17 bucks in total, with ice-kachang and fish otah. HAHA! I seriously love tuesdays, it's just like a day free.
But i 'm very scared of wednesday! Cos it's the day that we have to submit our tutorial assignments. And there's PDA practical, which is just difficult like rocket science to me. ); This really shouldn't be the case hukun.